Thursday, June 05, 2003

Having a good day? Don't go here.

For me, one of the most nerve-wracking and anxiety-filled experiences is bursts of inspiration. I know. What's up with that? Lately I've been having these incredible moments of creativity and inspiration- and it scares the crap outta me! I've felt artistic. I've been writing poems. I've had ideas. And I've been acting on them. But I get this feeling of guilt that I'm wasting these precious moments by not doing enough. I have a job. I'm at the office for nine hours out of my fiveteen awake ones a day. I should be writing volumes! I should be painting! I should be building furniture! Its easier when I have no imagination because then I can blame my idleness on "writers block."

Not that I'm being idle by any means. I'm loving it. I am writing. I'm thinking, I'm reading, I'm creating. This is what I love to do. But with dishes to wash, deadlines to meet, and weekly engagements to attend, I can't spend all my time inventing. Does this make any sense? Basically what I'm saying is I feel guilty when I'm inspired because I can't dedicate my whole life to it. That's what I'm saying.

Yesterday I made a birthday card with a birthday poem. That made me feel good.
This week I've written three poems that I kinda like.
I'm updating my poetry website.

I wish people actually read my blog.

Top Three People Who Have Inspired Me This Week: (2 of whom I do not know, 3 of whom do not know me.)
Alex the girl
Keri Smith
Tony Tost
Follow these links to read/see some great things.

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