Thursday, June 19, 2003

Sleepless in SelectPlus

Last night was the worst dream night of my entire life. First- I was listening to The Tickle as I went to sleep and had a really weird experience. I was concious in that stage right before sleep- the one where you aren't asleep but if someone were to call you'd accuse them of waking you up. That stage you call "I was almost back to sleep when you called and woke me up." But we're never concious in that state, we've already reached the unconciousness. Well last night I was in that state and knew it. I suddenly got scared- I felt like there were ghosts in my room. I started praying that God would take my scaredness away when I felt this body-like pressure against my back as if someone had sat down on the covers beside me, tightening the covers around me and leaning against my back. But I was asleep and I found I couldn't move to turn around and assure myself no one was there. I thought there was a door behind me and the person had entered through that door. I even remember my eyes being open and staring at the closet door and praying but not being able to turn over. Finally I actually fell asleep and this is when the scariest part of the night occurred: I began dreaming about SelectPlus.

SelectPlus is the computer program I use at work. I've been learning how to do "multiple passes" but I'm still pretty shaky with it. Last night, in my sleep, SelectPlus showed up. I began doing multiple passes. In fact, I began working on this enormous Annual Fund report with about thirty passes. I only know how to do about three! But not in my sleep. I started typing. I worked on this report all night long. Then the alarm went off. I hit the snooze- and resumed my report. Nine minutes later, alarm. Snooze, more SelectPlus. Nine minutes later, alarm. Snooze, SelectPlus. Not only did I dream about work all night, I mini-dreamed about it during my entire 45 minutes snooze session. I finally woke up feeling like I hadn't slept at all. In the shower all I could think was "I have to go to work and KEEP working on SelectPlus."

Well I'm here now, and program is running but I don't have the courage to look at it. I know I have reports to do. I have to train someone today. I can't get away from it. Someone bring me a Rick's sausage roll, please. I don't think I'm going to make it through the day, let alone week.

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