I don't know how to say this without being awkward, so I'm just going to say it.
I want you back.
See, I know I left you a year and a half ago for a new blog. Me and the new blog tried to make it work, we really did, but the truth is, we just didn't have the chemistry you and I have. We didn't have the history. I couldn't be myself around it; I kept feeling like I had to perform for it and be something I'm not all the time. It wasn't the new blog's fault; it was me. It was all me. We just didn't feel right together, and the more I thought about it, the more I missed you.
You and me, we could talk about anything. It didn't have to be important or meaningful or on any specific topic. We could just talk. It was pretty special what you and me had. Some days I'd want to dig deep into my heart and share intimate, emotional thoughts, and other days I just wanted to tell you about what I had for breakfast or about a weird dream I'd had. It was fun being with you. You made me enjoy writing, and every once in a while, between the breakfast and the dreams, I'd write something kind of great. But there was no pressure with you to be great all the time. I could just be me - sometimes deep and sometimes just plain silly.
And the history we share! You've been there through everything that's happened in my life for the past sixteen years. You've seen me say some really obnoxious, pretentious stuff and also some pretty smart stuff. You've been there through all the messes - the typos, the sentence fragments, the split infinitives. You've also been there through all the triumphs and major life milestones and really good posts that made a difference to someone. You saw me get married, move to another country, have three kids, volunteer and start businesses, move back from that country, go back to work, get divorced, meet a new fella.
Is it too late to ask for you back? Do you think we could be a thing again?
Because I miss you, and I miss writing, and I think you're one of the big things I've been lacking in my life over the past year and half. I need you, and if you'll have me back, it'll be forever this time. I promise. What do you say? Will you take me back?
Check yes or no.
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