I guess among firsts, I got a tax professional to do my taxes for the first time. And I bought a car from a dealership for the first time. I'm all grown up and stuff.
2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions and will you make more for next year?
Last year's New Year's resolution was to "rigorously save money, to get a little more exercise, eat a little healthier and lose about 15 pounds." Well, let's see how that went...
I didn't exactly save a lot of money, as in, put a lot in savings, but I managed to budget even better than I was already doing and have continued to keep us from needing a credit card or living in any debt (aside from cars). I got a lot more exercise than I ever expected and have maintained a gym membership for almost an entire year - February will be my one year gymniversary. On a good week, I go three times, on a great week I go all five weekdays and on a really bad week I miss completely, but that usually only happens when someone in the house is sick, preventing me from going. (Like it's been for the past three weeks or so...) A typical "bad week" would be one or two visits. So, I say I've done a far, far better job than I expected, considering I wrote last year that I would probably fail. I also lost a good amount of weight - 25 lbs! (Though I've put about 5 back on since Thanksgiving.) I think I've done pretty well this year! I'm now only a few pounds over what I was when I got married. :) Bragging over. Moving on.
I also chose Satisfaction as my "theme" for this past year - being satisfied with what I have and where I'm at. Changing what I can but being satisfied with what I can't. I guess I achieved that to an extent, but to be honest, I will just never be satisfied completely with living in Nowheresville, Arkansas. I just can't, no matter how hard I try.
So. All of that said, what are my resolutions for this year?
First thing I wanted to do, and I've already done this, was to streamline my Facebook Friends list for a fresh new year's start. I never unfriend people because it seems so mean, and I don't want to hurt any feelings. But there were so many people on my list I either did not even know or just don't have any contact with. So last night I did a clear out. I did not delete anyone for any unkind reasons; I have no animosity towards anyone I unfriended. I just decided to start fresh with people I actually keep at least a modicum of communication with.
My other resolution is to get back on keto and lose that last 15 lbs. My goal this year is lower than my goal was last year, because now I believe I can do it. I'd also like to do another clear out this year of "stuff", as I've accumulated quite a lot of things I don't really need. Going to have a garage sale in the spring, I think. I like simple, I like clear and clean.
And does getting Jaguar potty-trained count as a resolution?
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
I got a new niece and a new nephew this year! My brother and his wifey gave birth to their daughter Makaela, and Scott's brother and his wife had their first son, Sam. Also my step-brother and his wife had a little girl, so that gave me a step-niece as well! Aside from family, my coworker and friend Carrie had a sweet little girl, Greer, only a month ago, a "little" ten pound chunk of cuteness.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No one close necessarily, but a theater friend in Scotland passed away just a few days ago on Christmas day. He was one helluva pantomime dame. Never could remember his lines, which only added to the absurdity of panto. He will be missed. His family has been on my mind this week.
5. What countries did you visit?
No other countries this year, and probably none for the foreseeable future. Hence I now change this question to:
5b. What PLACES did you visit?
We went to Nashville, Tennessee to see my old BFF Amanda get married to the love of her life Eric. Beyond that, the furthest we ventured this year was Northwest Arkansas. Sad. Gotta remedy that in 2015.
6. What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?
Last year I said, "by the end of 2014 I'd like to have a plan. A life plan. A rough guide, more like, since my plans never go according to plan. I'd like to know where we are going to finally settle." I think we are getting a little closer to that now, though as for "life plan", that might still be asking too much.
This year, I'd like a little more adventure and excitement. 2014 was more or less a blank canvas of a year. Not much happened. No big ups, no big downs, certainly no adventures. I'd like to make sure 2015 isn't as blank as this past year was. Girls just wanna have fun, right?
7. What date from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory?
No actual dates stand out, but somewhere around August I breastfed Baby Jaguar for the last time. I guess I'll never breastfeed again. Kind of sad.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Surviving a full year in Nowheresville?
Ha. But seriously, probably the exercise thing. Starting a fitness routine and sticking with it longer than a few months. Seeing my body tone up, feeling my strength increasing. At the start of the year - February - I could barely get through the warm-up of a Kickboxing class, let alone the entire class, without wanting to pass out (or throw up). Now I can finish a class with plenty of energy to go. It's an amazing feeling.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Never getting my curtains hung in my living room. It's been a year and a half, come on.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No one suffered anything major this year, touch wood. We've had a few hospital scares - Jaguar, Fifi - but nothing that amounted to anything. We have all been off-and-on sick for several weeks though, which in effect RUINED CHRISTMAS (exaggeration, slightly).
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My new car!! I had been driving my Papaw's beat up 1999 Oldsmobile van for a year, and all I wanted was my own car with air conditioning. Finally in October, we were able to get me a car, and I love it! She is my precious.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
I hope I can say this in the right way, but I want to give a shout out to my mom. Me coming out as atheist this year has been incredibly hard on her. I know it breaks her heart every day. But after the initial shock and after having a few good talks about it with me, she has continued to treat me just the same as she always has - with unconditional love. I hated hurting my family by leaving our family's faith, and I hate that it hurts them daily. But my mom has made me feel like no matter what, she will always still see me as the same person I've always been. She still talks to me the same way as she used to, and there isn't any weirdness between us (at least I don't feel any). She prays for me constantly, I'm sure of it, but she hasn't made me feel like a disappointment to her.
That goes for quite a few people, really, but my mom gets the award for it this year.
13. What regrets do you have about the past year?
I guess I regret not trying harder to make friends. Not wanting to settle here permanently has resulted in me sort of unintentionally keeping up a wall around me. I've made friends that I really care about, but I think I've also kept everyone at a slight distance. I regret that, even while I understand it.
14. Where did most of your money go?
I'd say most of it went into rebuilding our home. We got the basics last year - furniture and the like - but this year I spent a lot of money just getting the little things that make a house feel like a home, like curtains (that I never put up) and wall art and extra sheets for beds. Plus the usual - food, clothes, toys.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My new car. My new sewing machine. Seeing my old high school friends on holidays.
16. What song/album will always remind you of 2014?
Quiet Company's We Are All Where We Belong. A former Christian's "coming out atheist" album. I understood every single word he wrote.
(You can listen to it here for free!)
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder? Though I've had some short periods of sadness encroaching upon depression, in general, I've had a much happier year this year. Exercise has been a large part of that. And while leaving Christianity came with a lot of pain, the freedom from it has given me so much more happiness.
thinner or fatter? Thinner! Yay!! I have gone down two sizes!
richer or poorer? Richer, thanks to my rockstar of a husband who works super hard and is super smart and has done super well in his new job here. And my little part time job helps too.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Socialize. I've made a few friends this year, but I've been so inside my own head that I haven't made a big enough effort to see them more regularly. Plus, between mornings at the gyms and afternoons cleaning in the house while Jaguar sleeps, there hasn't been a lot of time for socialization.
Also, I wish I'd read more books.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Watch Netflix. But I'll probably watch just as much next year. (Just being honest!)
20. How did you spend Christmas?
Well, I picked up a stomach bug a couple of days before Christmas, so our family brunch was postponed until New Year's Day. A week before Christmas, we celebrated with my dad and step-mom, and on Christmas morning, the kids opened their presents here at home. That night, I was feeling better, but Scott and two of the kids were then feeling rotten, so I went over to my aunt's for the extended family Christmas dinner. A lot of the plans I had for Christmas and Christmas Eve never happened, which I was upset about, but in general, we still had a good holiday. I'm happy now to have all the Christmas stuff put away for another year and to have my house back.
21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
We've reverted to Skype for talking to my in-laws in Scotland, so probably this year, I've spent the most time on the phone with my friend Devon, who even in this Information Age of texting and email, still enjoys shooting the breeze over the phone! Which is kind of retro and nice.
22. What's your best memory from 2014?
When Andy and Marion (my in-laws) came to visit at the beginning of the year. I hadn't seen Andy in six months, so it was really, really great to see them again. They are the best in-laws I could ever have asked for. It was wonderful spending time with them. The best memory from those weeks was sitting up late one night, drinking good whisky and laughing hysterically about everything and anything, everyone's cheeks getting pinker and pinker with good old Scotch merriment! It's hard to believe now almost a full year has passed without seeing them. I used to see them two or three times a week. I miss them.
23. How have you seen yourself grow as a person this year?
I think I've just learned to be a better person this year. I've learned that in order for anything to ever get better, we are going to have to actually do something about it. I can't sit back and hope someone else does something, but I myself must take action. I don't necessarily mean in big things, though I think we all have our part to play in the big stuff, but even in the small things - keeping a friend's kids so they can get out, donating money or time to tornado relief, bringing someone groceries when they are sick, writing a little note to encourage someone. All the little things that take so little of me but give so much to someone else.
I used to rely on prayer. Now I rely on me.
24. What was your favorite TV program(s)?
Hmm... I'd probably need to scan through my old Netflix views! I can't remember what I watched earlier in the year, but in the past month I've been watching the cheesiest show ever, Monarch of the Glen. Makes me miss Scotland, even though the show is nothing like the Scotland I lived in!
Black Mirror, by the way, is gut-punchingly incredible.
26. What was the best book(s) you read? What books would you like to read in the next year?
I read several books by Bart Ehrman which were interesting. I read The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks, which I highly recommend! I joined a book club and read some interesting books there, like Gone Girl and The Rosie Project. I'm currently re-reading (for the sixth or seventh time) The Chrysalids by John Wyndham.
Next year, I need to read 41 by George W Bush since I got it for Christmas from my dad... as long as he reads Dreams From My Father by Barack Obama, which I got him! I'd also like to re-read Silence by Shusako Endo, Angle of Repose by Wallace Stegner and Daniel Martin by John Fowles. Any other book recommendations will gladly be taken!
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
My old friend Massey and I have been chatting on Facebook about music though, and he's introduced me to a few new songs and bands that I need to spend a little more time getting into, if I can just find the time!
Last year's answer: A cat.
This year's answer: Another cat.
Also a car!
29. What did you want and not get?
To move away. (Insert a wink, even though, I'm for reals.)
30. What were your favorite films of this year?
Do parents actually get to see films? I think we saw a couple. That one with Johnny Depp and the artificial intelligence was good. Transcendence, that's the one.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I don't think I actually did anything on my birthday this year (32), but at some point after it my family and I went out for Indian food to celebrate. Scott got me a sewing machine!
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If the Republicans hadn't won everything in the last election.
If Hobby Lobby had lost their court case.
If Fayetteville hadn't repealed their ban on discrimination. (I don't even live there anymore.)
If the AR Supreme Court had made a ruling regarding the ban on same-sex marriage (and that ruling had been to declare it unconstitutional.)
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014?
Up until the October Dress Project, I was still dressing pretty ordinary, in jeans or trousers and t-shirts, or gym wear. But ODP made me really want to enjoy looking nice again, so even though my wardrobe is still pretty sparse and mostly made up of handmedowns and clearance rack items, I've tried recently to up my appearance by dressing a little more interestingly, accessorizing with belts and scarves and hats and footwear.
She says, as she types this in her pink bunny pajamas at 2pm.
34. What kept you sane?
Working out. Kickboxing, Cardio Dance, Zumba, with the occasional Power Pump, Pilates and Step classes.
35. Which holiday or special occasion meant the most to you?
In February, our Seattle friends Jonathan and Sarah, along with their two little munchkins, came to Arkansas to visit us. Considering Jonathan always said he'd never step foot in Arkansas, it was pretty special that they came out to visit us!
Then on Jaguar's birthday, my brother- and sister-in-law surprised us with a visit from their Texan family. It was great to meet our little nephew and to have the girls all together again. It was great to see them all. It was really special.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Last year's answer will still continue to be this year's answer: Health care and same-sex marriage. Add in separation of church and state.
37. Who did you miss?
I still miss so many of my Scottish friends and family. I always will. I've really missed my Craft Night Girls, Heather, Paula and Elaine, who were always the ones I went to when I needed to talk shit through. It's been lonely without that.
38. Who was the best new person (people) you met?
Despite the way I make it sound, I have actually met a lot of really awesome people. The girls from the book club are all awesome. The girls I've met at work are all awesome. My across-the-street neighbor Amy was awesome... but they moved to Texas (boo!). The girls I've met at the gym are awesome. But my top, number one people - who I really didn't meet this year, but have gotten to know better this year - are Elizabeth and Mandy. There's some kindred-spirit crap in there somewhere with those two.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014.
"Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not." -Dr Seuss
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
I could probably just quote the entire Quiet Company's We Are All Where We Belong, but I'll settle on just a couple quotes from here and there throughout the album.
"The river's wide, that I could not swim across it, so I convinced myself I'd walked upon the waves, but I don't want to waste my life. I wanted to feel as saved as they do, but the more I live, the harder to believe that their god above knows the first thing about love or goes along with every rule they make up. I don't want to waste my life, thinking about the afterlife." -from "The Confessor"
"I was screaming out your name. I guess you never heard me, but I was screaming it for years, and I think I deserve a reason for why you've been so elusive. Now I've been thinking about my life and I can't believe that I have wasted so much time trying to be what everyone loves, the prodigal son returning. Oh what a sight, the prodigal son returning." -from "The Easy Confidence"
"Hey kids, tell them what you really think. Think it over. This is your life, don't ignore it. This could be your only chance to repent so get off your knees and adore it, the responsibility of empathy." -from "Preaching to the Choir Invisible, Part II"
And it's not a song lyric, but this little quote has been blowing my mind all year long:
"The nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood, the carbon in our apple pies were made in the interiors of collapsing stars.
We are made of starstuff." -Carl Sagan
Love this! I want to steal your list of questions for my blog, what a a great way to jump start the year. I'm really glad I got to know you in 2014, Lori!ReplyDelete
While I have a really different perspective about living in AR than you (since I've never lived in another country), I've really grown to be more content with living here in the past few years. Through my job, I meet a lot of families who have moved to AR and everyone talks about how beautiful the "natural state" is and how people here are so welcoming. Hearing an outsider's perspective has really made me appreciate AR more. Of course, that doesn't change what you are saying about some of the state laws and political leanings... but it's my two cents. :-) Happy 2015, Lori!
I used to LOVE Arkansas. I used to talk about how beautiful it is and how great the people are. I think the change in me is that after living in a big, crowded town only a few miles away from a big, crowded city has made me prefer that kind of life. It's too secluded here, too spread out, too little to do (without driving half an hour) for me now. And yes, the political leanings drive me batty!! There are things about this area that I do like, though. Just not many. Haha :) Book Club is definitely one of the biggest perks here!