So, sure, I only had a baby one month ago. Yeah, yeah, yeah it took my nine months to put the weight on, it'll take me nine months to get it back off. I know all this. I say it to new mums every day. (Or, you know, when it comes up.)
But I am so desperate to get this weight off.
My husband has been on the keto diet for a wee while and has lost tons of weight. I decided to try it too. After all, I'm practically eating all the same stuff anyway, since we eat the same meals. I started on Saturday.
It's Tuesday, and I have already fallen off the wagon.
I'm trying not to beat myself up over it. I've made excuses. My excuses are probably pretty valid: breastfeeding, baby born only a month ago, already tired from running after three kids. But I feel like a failure. I hate failing anything, even something as small as a diet. When I decide to go for something, I go for it full on. To give up makes me feel weak. I hate feeling weak.
I want to lose 18 lbs to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight, and then another 8 to get to my target. I just need to have patience and not rush it. I have two weeks until my six-week check-up, and as long as I get the go-ahead from the doctor, I'd like to get back to my BodyPump classes. Very low weights, of course, but anything to get active again. At least then, I can eat a bit more of what I really want and not feel too guilty about it.
Question is, do I get back onto my diet and just cheat when I need to (i.e., when I need an energy boost) or do I just say screw it altogether? Is there a middle ground?