Friday, January 10, 2014

The "Project" That Shall Not Be Named

A goofy Fifi picture

Tonight, I'm taking a break from writing. Except that I'm blogging, which is writing which means I'm not taking a break.

For the past full week, I've spent every spare moment writing. I don't know what's gotten into me, but whatever it is, it wants out. I posted a glimpse of what's being going on in my head a few days ago, but most of this is getting saved and quietly digested as I try to decide what it even is.

All I know is the last time I started something that I felt really passionate about but didn't know where the obsession was taking me, it turned into my Lunch Is Boring bento business. (Gosh, I miss that business.) Lately, all these memories, most of them kind of scratchy and raw, have been clawing out of me onto computer screen. It's been cathartic and exhilarating and draining. Somehow I feel that dredging up the past is helping me understand my present, and maybe my future.

It's probably just a load of bollocks, but that hasn't stopped me from constant writing.

Tonight, however, I'm taking a break from it. I need a breather. I need to reconnect with the present. Saying that, last night I felt the same way and ended up writing six pages on "the present". No, I'm taking a break now from thinking *period* and from scraping my insides out like cantaloupe seeds. Scott and I are going to watch Community and then I might read a book or mess around on Facebook or go to sleep. The writing bug is on me, but tonight I'm swatting it away. I feel like this whole week I've been living underwater, and I need to emerge briefly to take a breath before diving back down into it. Any other writers feel this way? Or is taking a break the death of my project?

...For I'm only willing to call it a "project" right now until I know for sure what it is.

And now I'm stepping away from the computer, because even thinking about it is sparking ideas that need to get put down in words, and I'm TAKING A DAMN BREAK. I haven't spent quality time with my husband all week, though he is fully supportive of my new writing streak, excited for me even.

I'll blog as often as I can in the new few days/weeks/however long, but I'll be keeping *most* of my project to myself for the time being.

TV time!

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