Why I think Xanga is for losers.

Two posts in the same afternoon? Scandalous!

I can't help it if I'm bored to death. It doesn't appear my boss is in the office today so I haven't had anything to work on. People still haven't realized that they can get their reports a whole lot faster if they'd just freaking send them to me.

I'm going to now write a journal entry about marriage. Grossed out single people may want to abstain.

I'm very excited about getting married. I've never been married before. I'm excited about not sleeping alone anymore. I've slept alone most of my life, minus the times I've spent the night with friends and other such exceptions. It'll be good to share a bed. (For awhile anyway. But we're not talking about that.) I'm also looking forward to sharing things. When you live with roommates, things are "shared" but they are still very much private property. Everyone knows which dishes are "yours" and who bought the last tub of butter. (It'll be my turn next.) I can't wait to own things together. Everything we have will be "ours". There will be no need to keep things separate because there will be no moving out in the future. I can't wait to go shopping together for "our" things.

I can't wait to have guests over to "our" house. I can't wait to get the guest room all cleaned up with fresh flowers in a vase. I can't wait for people to see our house. I can't wait to invite people over for meals and make delicious courses.

I can't wait to make "our" friends. We've already made a couple which is incredibly exciting. (They are bodacious.) I can't wait to make more.

Ooh and kids! Imagine--"our" kids!!! Now I've never had kids that were "my" kids so the "our" doesn't seem as novel here, but the idea of having kids is! I can't wait to experience the blessing of kids... I can't wait til the moment I find out I'm pregnant, that there is a child growing inside me. The idea just gives me chills!

I can't wait til the wedding. In particular, I can't wait to take communion with him at the alter. I get tears in my eyes when I think of the beauty of remembering Christ's death with my husband.

Most of all, I can't wait to just be with Scott. By the time we are married, we will have only spent approximately 8-9 weeks together. 10 if you count the week we weren't "dating" but liked each other. It will be incomparably delightful to finally be together. I can't wait to come home every day to Scott, or have him come home to me. I can't wait to go to parties with him, to go on trips with him, to stay at home and watch movies with him, to watch storms with him. Nothing will be more precious than the quiet times with him when we don't have to talk or think or explain anything. Nothing.

The end.

Things That Make April the Best Month This Year:

1. My birthday
2. The completion of my Honors Thesis
3. Classes end for the Spring semester
4. I can finally consider myself a college graduate
5. Wedding dress shopping
6. Easter
7. Teeth cleaning at dentist (I love that.)

Things That Make This Week Suck:

1. Four tests (with one down)
2. Pressure pressure pressure! (Regarding thesis due next week)
3. First time in 22 years I will not celebrate my birthday with a party. But it's my choice. I'm too busy.
4. Loud Girl plus new Semi-Loud Girl. Semi-Loud Girl is less annoying than Loud Girl, but still loud.
5. No Scott

Inspirational Desk Calendar Quote of the Day:
"I am ready to meet God face to face tonight and look into those eyes of infinite holiness, for all my sins are covered by the atoning blood." -R. A. Torrey

The Paper Hearts

Ok so granted, I've been a little out of the loop lately with the Fayetteville music scene. I haven't been to JR's for a show in many months. But how was I so out of it that I didn't know The Paper Hearts had reunited?? And not only are they reunited, they've BEEN reunited for some time now (with a new drummer) and have just released an EP! I must say, I'm thrilled; afterall, The Paper Hearts were certainly among my favorite bands ever. But it's just so weird. I mean, isn't Aaron living in Kansas or Missouri or some place? When did Todd leave Lucero? Andrew's playing with Aqueduct now. My, how things change.

Cake!

I went to a cake decorating class today. It was so fun! This is my first wedding cake:



Close up that's...



A few of the other cakes were fantastic, too. Here's a few.





We're all well on our way to becoming pros.

I'm on my way to a "cocktail party" of sorts. I feel absolutely ridiculous. Strapless dresses aren't designed for the bosom-impaired. And too much make-up looks silly on girls who don't usually shower.

Oobladee Oobladah Life Goes On- OH! La La La La Life Goes On...

I couldn't resist? Is that an excuse?

But it is true. Life goes on. It's not fair that I can't be with my fiancé while we're engaged, but it's also not fair that people break up or people have to wait to get married. For all of us, life goes on. And God's got it all figured out for all of us. "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28)

So here I am back at school, trying to finish up my degree, working again, living with roommates, carrying a sack lunch, while Scott goes back to work, back to looking for a job, a flat, a computer...

But I'm eating strawberries. I've got leftover lasagna in the fridge. I got paid today. I'm wearing a diamond ring. Life isn't so bad.

Do our losses really outweigh the goods? Sometimes we begin to think so.

I had to eat my cereal with a measuring spoon this morning because there were no spoons....

Albeit I should be getting ready for school and reading up for this class, but I'm going to begin the photo-journal of my Spring Break instead.

(Is albeit an appropriate word in that context?)

Ahem.

Engagement
getting engaged
discussing the wedding
our attempt at engagement pictures

Family
Mum & Dad; Kate, Scott, Mum
Pete; Scott & Lori

Friends
Graeme; Stevie & Lewi; Jonathan
Sarah; Sean


Technically this was no journal but you get the picture. We had a magnificent time. For full size pictures click here. The end.

Well, ladies and gentlemen, I'm home again. I admit I do love my big comfy bed, but it doesn't make up for not having Scott with me. This being away from Scott business is ridiculous. I miss him so much.

Now, in a few days I'm going to post some pictures of my journey across the sea to be engaged, but for now I will try to satiate you all with a picture of...

The Ring.




Scott is the best man in the entire world.

Virginity. I'll be glad to be rid of it.